Saturday, August 27, 2016

Thick water

More on the hospital experience. I never knew there was such a thing as thick water.

Until I experienced
The horror
Of all liquids thickened
With cornstarch
And a speech therapist
Who refused
To give me
The swallow test
I learned the joys
Of clear cold water
A green salad
A speech therapist
Delighted to give me
The swallow test
After I fired
The first one.

Thursday, August 25, 2016

Scenic overlooks

I am still learning to say thank you even when I haven't seen it myself.

On the way
To our destination
We passed several
Scenic overlooks.
We were in a shuttle
So we didn’t stop
To look over
At the purported
Scenes.
We had to take their word
For it.
We discussed
What scenic might be
In these cases
Having little idea.
Sometimes it’s important
To take someone else’s word
And  say
Thank you.

Saturday, August 20, 2016

We always said

And so the time has come. 

We always said
Even when the divorce loomed
Even when
We drove our son
Back and forth
Met at McDonalds
In Brighton.
We always said
Even when
The divorce was final
Each of us
With new partners
More children
Living
In different parts
Of the country.
We always said
We always knew
If push came to shove
If shove came to push
We would be there
For the other.

Friday, August 19, 2016

Hmm

I do my best not to jump ahead of things. One is good enough for now, 

Hmm
Hmm
Hmm
Everything comes
In threes:
Doubt
Understanding
Even joy.
Threes I tell you
Three
A somehow
Magic number.
I count now
I have only reached
One.
Two more
To go.
Hmm.


Thursday, August 18, 2016

Daunting

This time next week I will have finished step one... flown out to DC...had the first round of tests, met with the epileptologist at NIH, flown home, and awakened in my own bed. Daunting? Yes. I have a round of what ifs sifting through my brain.  What exactly will step two look like?

This is all daunting
Amazing daunting (who knew)
Who knew really knew?

Monday, August 15, 2016

Blue butterflies

Never knew such things came with tattoos.

So many choices.
In three weeks
My ankle/foot orthotics
Will arrive
With blue butterflies
On the ankles.
Almost like tattoos
Except
Not quite.
I might have chosen
Black panthers
Except
They were not
An option.

Friday, August 12, 2016

Hidden

This feels like an odd new adventure. Who really knows what's inside anyone's skull?

And so
We will see
What comes next.
I add options as I go.
What was possible on Monday
Gains momentum here
On Friday afternoon.
The new possibility may well require travel.
Who knew my brain might prove
Interesting
Aside from sermons and poetry?
So much hidden
Inside my skull.
So much hidden.
Who knew?