Friday, September 30, 2016

Butterflies

New braces!

The butterflies are here
Flying on my thin ankles
My thin calves
They fit
Finally they fit
I am grateful
The butterflies are here
Flying
Flying
Blue and flying.

Wednesday, September 28, 2016

Icee bear

Summer job.

As a teenager
I spent one summer
In a bear suit,
An Icee bear suit.
The fan inside the head
No longer worked.
It was hot.
Really hot.
Did I mention
It was hot?
Yes,I had other jobs
But nothing compared
With the Icee bear.


Tuesday, September 27, 2016

Seizure stories

Yes, I have more stories. The difficulty with the post-ictal state is that I don't remember most of them.

I collect stories
From the several
Emergency rooms
I have visited
After a seizure.
I now have favorite stories,
Though some
Not so much.
Seizure number two
The one
With a possible concussion
Brought a doctor
Asking me
Who the President
Of the United States was.
How sad
I thought
He doesn’t know
Who the President is.
To be helpful
(I try to be helpful)
I told him.
There was the ER visit
They wanted
To send me home
In a cab.
Thank God
My beloved got there
First.

Monday, September 26, 2016

Trout

The family now tells me stories of the speech therapist loudly asking me where fish live. It is now a family joke. I would like to be a rainbow trout.

When I was in the hospital
The speech therapist asked me
Where fish live.
Being in intensive care
And not focused
On fish
Or water
I did not respond.
Now I think
I would like to be
A rainbow trout
And live
In a fast-flowing
River.

Sunday, September 25, 2016

Endurance

From Brain Pickings this morning. The rest is from me.

What I could,
I changed;
What I couldn’t,
I endured.

Dorothy Vaughan
NASA mathematician

The birds in flight
On the bookshelves
Remind me
Of possibilities
Even as I sit in the living room
In the blue chair,
The walker
In front of me.
Then I read
This quotation
From Dorothy Vaughan,
An African American mathematician
In the 1940’s.
I am amazed
At her endurance.
If she could do it
So can I
So can I
So can I.
The birds continue flying
On the bookshelves.
I fly
In my own way.
I change what I can.
I endure what I must.
But always
I fly.

My decision

Rather amazing. Decided this morning to take my pension and not apply for disability. It was easier than I thought it would be.

Decision:
Pension
Not disability.
There are advantages
To being 61.
Already I feel better.
Already
I know I do not
Have to prove anything
To anyone.
Those years were earned.
My brain
Is my brain.
My feet
Are my feet.
The decision
Is my decision.
Yes
This is my decision

Saturday, September 24, 2016

Waiting to leave

Watching birds is in my genes

The birds mass
To leave
Line up on the wires
To figure out
Where everyone
Is.
They count
Each other
Figure out who is first
Who second
Who will lead
Who will trail
The flock
When the time
Really comes.
In the meantime
They line up
Practice counting
Practice massing
Practice figuring
Practice waiting