Addiction is a metaphor

The term addiction can apply to so many things: alcohol, drugs, food, gambling, sex, work, etc. etc. etc. It is whatever we do to escape life. It promises life, and we believe it. It is not life. We know it is there when we find ourselves saying if only. Addiction is a metaphor. It can delude us, or it can lead us back to life in community with others. Sometimes community begins with one person.

Addiction

Is a metaphor.

We hide behind it.

We use it

To get help.

We say we are powerless

Over it

Find a company of people

Who help us

Say no

Say no

Say no

Then

When and if

We say yes

Say no again.

We admit change is possible,

Not hopeless.

Now we see in a mirror darkly,

Then we shall see face to face.

Addiction

Is a metaphor.

We hide behind it.

It hides behind us.

We say no.

Then yes

Then say no.

Begin again.

We hold hands

With our company of people

Begin again.

Experiment

Hooray. Today the experiment worked. I will try it again on Thursday.

Today I began again.

It was an experiment to see

Whether this kind of dizzy

Plus a workout

Resulted in something more

Than dizzy.

It didn’t.

The experiment

Had positive results.

I will repeat it

On Thursday.

Results only matter

If doing the same thing

Brings the same outcome.

Today I began again.

Thursday I will

Begin again.

Gentle yoga

In an hour I will walk up the hill for my first private gentle yoga session. I guess I needed to make a new beginning in North Carolina. After that I will see whether I continue.

I feel myself

Settling in to where I am now

Soon: gentle yoga