Possibility of God

Ah the next round of doctor visits.  Today a colleague says he thinks it is always a good idea to have someone with you when you see the doctor.  I go back and forth.  I want to be seen as fully effective in myself.  But really it*s amazing what another set of caring eyes and ears can do.  I take a lot of back and forthing before I realize this thing I need to re-learn again and again.

I bring my husband with me

To the doctor.

I go back and forth,

Back and forth,

Is this is a good idea?

Will I be seen as someone

Who needs help?

Someone

Who asks for help?

Will I be known as someone

Who gracefully invites company

Into the doctor*s office

To ask bold questions,

Perhaps to hold the answers

up to the light,

See through them

To the possibility of God

On the other side.

I bring him with me

I ask for help

Fitfully, gracefully,

I invite his company into the doctor*s office

Together we look through the answers

Together

We look

For the possibility

Of God.