Think about it

As I write this I realize it took me less than 24 hours to come to this.  This is a personal record!  I spent years wrestling with me and the Church, how I might best use who I am, who God has called me to be.  Now the temptation to think about it again has come, and I can hold it in front of me, think about it, and let it go.  I am where I need to be.  I have a counseling office directly under the altar.  The thread which ties together the people I see is one of vocational search. There is nothing (I think) that beats choosing to be where one finds oneself.

Think about it

He says,

Presenting me with data

I gave him

Two days ago.

Think about it,

He offers.

So I think.

Now the offer has come again

Full circle

Through his brain and heart

And back to me.

Think about

What you might do.

So I think.

Overnight I realize

I have already answered

The question.

My answer is here

In this small office

Under the altar.

I write and pray.

I talk with one person

At a time.

Sometimes,

Like this week,

In the cycle of things,

Schools fill

Even as they will empty

Next June.

Think about it

He says.

He presents me with something

I wrestled with

For years.

It is new to him.

For me:

I came, I thought, I wrestled

Like Jacob

At the Jabok.

It was truly worth years

Of thought

And wrestling.

Truly.

Now I think again

And let go.