Friday, August 30, 2013

Think about it

As I write this I realize it took me less than 24 hours to come to this.  This is a personal record!  I spent years wrestling with me and the Church, how I might best use who I am, who God has called me to be.  Now the temptation to think about it again has come, and I can hold it in front of me, think about it, and let it go.  I am where I need to be.  I have a counseling office directly under the altar.  The thread which ties together the people I see is one of vocational search. There is nothing (I think) that beats choosing to be where one finds oneself.

Think about it
He says,
Presenting me with data
I gave him
Two days ago.
Think about it,
He offers.
So I think.
Now the offer has come again
Full circle
Through his brain and heart
And back to me.
Think about
What you might do.
So I think.
Overnight I realize
I have already answered
The question.
My answer is here
In this small office
Under the altar.
I write and pray.
I talk with one person
At a time.
Like this week,
In the cycle of things,
Schools fill
Even as they will empty
Next June.
Think about it
He says.
He presents me with something
I wrestled with
For years.
It is new to him.
For me:
I came, I thought, I wrestled
Like Jacob
At the Jabok.
It was truly worth years
Of thought
And wrestling.
Now I think again
And let go.

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